It Started Out Pretty Well...

Dear SS,

All yesterday and all day today I've felt that you're in conflict with yourself. I think you're caught in between two decisions and are confused as to how to respond.

The first thing I would suggest is that you ask yourself: Which choice is the best for me? Back in the beginning, I used to tell you to take time for yourself, do things that made you happy. You cannot live your life for other people. I've found out the hard way that that solution doesn't make them happy anyway.

Damned if you do, damned if you don't.

Next, look at your current situation and figure out: If I keep the status quo, can I live with my decision? I guess this goes along with the first question. Of course, most answers aren't set in stone, and you can usually change your mind.

That being said, number three would be: Go with your gut. Honestly, I don't think I've ever regretted a decision I've made on first thought. Overanalyze, and it can backfire. (And then I end up at my initial decision, thinking why didn't I just do this to begin with?)

Let's put it this way, too. Whatever you decide to do, whatever makes you happy, there's always going to be someone who doesn't like it. That's normal. And unavoidable. To paraphrase a quote, "You can't please all of the people all of the time."

So, when you're wondering what to do, maybe go through these questions and ask yourself:

Which choice will make my heart happy?
Which will give me peace of mind?
Which will make me look forward to my day?
Which comes to mind first when I think of the choices?

I hope some of this helped. Right this second, after picking up my pen again, I feel like I should just stop talking altogether. To everyone. Feel like I hurt more than I help. It's my own fault that I'm attacked all the time. Almost every time I come on Mayo's, I stick my foot in my mouth. No wonder the anons love to harass me, I give them so much ammunition.

I'm sorry, all I've done lately is unload on you. How selfish am I?

Don't think I'm going to be at Mayo's for a while, that is if he leaves it there. I know the anons will be more than ecstatic.

Precious, no matter how difficult this all becomes, I will always be here for you. I know that goes both ways. I love you.

J *feeling very unjappy, very 'yeah you did it again', but apparently too hardheaded to shut up*